Battle Inside;

"And Sometimes We Drink The Pain Away."

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It's the same picture every morning my dad asleep on the couch after the long night of fighting with his wife, I can hear it all so clearly and it's breaking my heart to see this happen to him again. Maybe it was just the alcohol talking or they really are thinking about splitting up. They seem so fine during the day but once they get alone in their room the volcano erupts and hurtful, hateful and dirty words fly out of their mouth like bullets. Something I think it gets physical because I'll hear the loud crashes and thuds. Thank goodness every time it happens I'm the only one awake to hear it. It's getting scary and worse every day. I knew this marriage wouldn't work they rushed into things and they didn't think about what they were doing. Every day there's a battle or a struggle, they drink so much I'm surprised their livers aren't failing or they haven't died in a car accident or been pulled over and gotten a D.U.I. They need to shape up if they want this family to stay together I don't think they realize that their going to loose us all. CPS has been called because of this problem and this time we can't lie to save our family we have to be honest. I don't know if I can do it I don't want to get take away from my daddy I love him but he just needs to stop drinking so much and I don't want to get split up from my sisters because their all I have ya know? I just need to be calm about this and not let it affect me, I need to keep this outta my head and I can't cry over it because nothing get solved if I do. I need to do what ever I can to make this house work again. I gotta be Super Girl or something I need to save everyone so everything will work.

I love my family to death but we just can't hold together anymore.

"What do you do when the people that are suppose to love you; hate each other?"