"This path has got to take me some where..."
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So I didn't get to see Cass today because he got in trouble for coming home and puking in his living room when he was drunk.
If he would of just stayed with Joe things would have been fine but he decided to go with Taylor and he didn't tell Taylor yet but I know he will when he feels ready. I don't think I'm going to dress up tomorrow there's no point in putting on my jeans I wont see him tomorrow and ya know what it kinda makes me want to cry because I've grown attached to him and his words are so sweet, and I can look at him and just smile and lay my head in his lap and know everything is going to be okay.
Yesterday when I was with him, we were in the car and Joe was driving like an idiot I felt like we were going to crash but I was okay with it because I was happy because I was in his arms and if the car rolled I knew I still would of been safe because he was holding me.
I've never felt this feeling of security with someone before, I kinda wish I would of saved myself for him because he's more worth it than any guy will ever be.
He tells me I'm gorgeous not Hot or Sexy.
He tells me things he's never told anyone before.
He holds my hand in public and takes me places.
He wants to spend time with me and he's more than one girl could ever ask for.
I've never felt so complete and so happy.
He brushes my hair out of my eyes when I'm laying with him.
I get goose bumps and butterflies with him.
He said he would fight for me and every time he hugs me I don't want him to let me go.
BAHHH I'm crying while I write this I'm sucha emotional reck right now.
I'm not going to let this one go or mess it up.
This kid is everything I need and more I don't care if he's not in school or if he drinks and smokes because he knows what he wants to do with his life and that's all I need and he's doing what he needs to get where he needs to be.
He's an inspiration and a dreamer.
He's the most amazing thing that has ever so casually drifted into my life.
He knocked me off my feet, stole my breath, snatched my heart and caught me when I fell.
I really don't know how it happened but it feels so good and I don't want this feeling to ever fade or disappear.
I feel like I don't need worry about anything when I'm with him because he takes care of me.
He makes my heart beat fast and he makes me laugh and smile and he likes every part of me.
This kid has my full attention and my entire heart on this string and boy is he pulling it in all the right directions.
When he kisses me sometime my legs go numb and I'm so afraid I'm going to collapse because he knows how to just keep me on my toes and keep my attention.
I think I'm going to take a nap so I can see him in my dreams.
<3
"Pass me another bottle honey the Jager's is so sweet but if it keeps you around them I'm down"
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