Honestly;

"I hate the way your constantly smiling when I'm around, I hate the way your eyes light up when they meet mine. I hate the way you walk, talk, & act.

Wanna know why?

Their the reasons I can't let you go."

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I'm only one girl and I've got so much on my mind, between the boys and the grades, the drama and the lies. Right now it's the boys that are giving me the most trouble. My ex wants me back, and I honestly love him and miss him, and this new boy grabbed my attention.

I think I fell in love with my fuck buddy and I can't let the thought of him go. I can barely stomach the thought of kissing another guy with out the feeling of guilt poisoning my stomach. I wish he could just realize that he means more to me than he sees. I can't keep waiting on this though. I need to know if he's going to man up and sweep me off my feet or leave me in the dust. I've honestly never put this much effort into a guy.

The Ex, man do we have some history and he is so amazing and I was so happy with him but the noise of people telling me to leave him was to much to hear and I couldn't deal with it. I want him back but there is so much buzzing around my head.

The New Boy, I wasn't drooling over him at first like the other girls were but after we start to talk I saw this kid is pretty amazing and really nice. He's got looks, and an amazing personality but I can see that if it was to ever happen there would be a lot of friends lost and more drama than one girl should ever throw herself into.

That's really all I got to say today.

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Note To Self...

If your not their first choice, just walk away, it's only going to hurt. If they're not your first choice, just walk away, it's only going to hurt them.