Girls Fake Orgasms And Guys Fake Relations;

" I'm done with liars. I'm sick of the bullshit and baby don't worry I wont get attached to you because people like you come and go to frequently."

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She's lookin to her left and lookin to her right and all she can see is those fake smiles and the fake words that dig into her heart and finally rip her to shreds. This girl realize that it's just her S.E.X and they can fake their relations till they get into her pants. Oh baby if you really love you'll give it up to me and she can feel the fire burning through her veins screaming to her and her stomach turning and her eyes start to water and she's breathing heavy and she's losing her mind over these petty relations and bullshit flings. She makes it to school the next day with a heavy heart and the night before lingers behind her and she can hear the whispers. "Whore.... Did you hear what she did last night... What a tramp... She's so easy..." She takes a deep breath and smiles as she floats quietly through the day reserved and distant from the people she once called her own. "Whore... Did you hear what she did last nigh... What a tramp... She's so easy." She breaths in once more turning her iPod up and choking away the tears as she floats through her day. The nights and days repeat same story different faces.

"Whore... Did you hear what she did last night... Tramp... She's so easy."

Yeah everyone I get it now, I know how you feel about me.

Thank for being so real with me this whole time. 

Everyone now and day is so fake from their rotten core to their shiny plastic skin, I may be this easy trampy whore but at least I'm real.

In Lust We Trust;

I Believe In Love, Lust, Sex And Romance. I Dont Want Everything To Add Up To The Perfect Equation. I Want Mess And Chaos. I Want Someone To Go Crazy Out Of His Mind For Me. I Want To Feel Passion, Heat And Madness. I Want It All.

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Lustful wishing and tasteful dreaming, how can you ever tell if you in love with them or in lust with them, is it the wishful day dreaming of that next passion filled kiss or the lustful dreaming of that next hair pulling lip biting tangled mess in the sheet that keeps you together. I think when people get together they base a lot of their relationship on the sexual pleasure and not beyond the looks and euphoria this person gives them. How often do you date someone completely for their personality? We're living in a sex crazed nation, you see it every where, t.v, music, magazines, books, and almost everywhere else you turn you see it, hear it or hear about it. I kinda miss the whole in love thing vs. the whole in lust thing.

I dont have much more to say on this topic.

Signing Out

-Missy

You Act Like I Have No Idea;

"Bitches Get Stitches They End Up In Ditches." -Blood On The Dance Floor.

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So lets pretend to like her then talk so much shit we choke on our own words, check yourself before you reck yourself dude. I'm so sick and tired of everyone talking shit on me and then turning around seconds later to greet me with a smile and a wave. Nukka be real with me you don't like me fucking tell me, think I'm a hoe say it so my face stop being a bitch and talking behind my back because that makes you a pussy. I know you bitches gunna say shit to my face so if I hear you spit my name I promise you that I will make your bitch ass spit blood, I may be a "hoe" but at least I'm real. I aint gunna lie I talk shit but at least I talk shit on people I hate and not my "friends". Nice life bitches. You aint gunna have shit by senior year because if you talk shit on me you run your mouth about everyone else too. Oh well haters make me famous. So have fun runnin your mouth and talking your shit, your only makin my name bigger.
Hurray For Me Fuck You.
Peace Out Nukkas
-Missy

Modern Swinger;

"I Like Her But I Just Don't Care Enough To Fool Around With Love."

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Love is it ever asking to much at this age? Are we all just swingers? I mean you do see the couples at our age and they look happy but are they really committed? I mean shit life's short have an affair, cheat, lie and steal. Love is something you can't go searching for you have to let it find you and you'll know what it is when you have it but until then be a swinger because honestly we're young we don't need to spend the rest of our lives with our high school sweet heart the sex would get dull. So I mean why wait around for mister perfect if he wants me so bad he can come find me lets make life a game of hide a seek, I mean yeah when I'm older I'll look at this and laugh but until I hit that point in my life we're gunna party hard, live it up, drink it down, light it up, breathe and enjoy every moment of our high school life, then college oh lord college will be the best party years of your life so until your ready to settle down, have a family and children do as much as you can to make your life worth it because as soon as you got the ring on your finger you worry, you panic and oh god things get hard. Maybe I'll just never get married, just have a partner ya know, we'll have our own bank accounts and shit but we'll live together, fuck and have kids.   It makes sense, but until mister right finds me I'll play all my dirty games and party until I pass the fuck out.

It's my life and I'll make the god damn best I can of it.

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Peace Nukka

-Missy

That Silly Leap Of Faith;

"So We Realize That It's Not The Jumping Or The Falling We're Afraid Of We're Afraid Of Where We Land."

And thats the honest to God truth, when we jumps off of things your never afraid of taking that leap but your afraid on what's below you and that one thing that keeps us going you never know where your going to land or what your going to land on so we keep jumping and even if we hit a patch were we break an ankle we heal and jump again praying for a softer landing. One day your going to wake up and realize that you've been missing all the best jumps in your life, so live for the moment and when your offered something take a leap of faith and say yes. Try new things and taste as much food as possibly because life is short and we don't live for ever.

Life is more of a game than you can ever realize you either land on free parking and strike it rich or land on go straight to jail and have to start all over again, life really is like monopoly. You pass go and get your pay check and spend as your move around the board you may get lucky or you fuck up big time but either way you always end up back at the starting line, sometimes it's easier to keep restarting than it is to keep going on but you can't just flip the board when you get stuck and start all over again, you play until you run outta money or someone else wins. That's all life is, a leap of faith and a board game.

So just remember to keep your mind open and keep breathing because your life may be shitty but maybe your next jump you will land on free parking and strike it rich.

-Missy

Bring It To An End And Hit Rewind;

"Jokes And Lies Or Truth And Love"

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She woke up at 11:30 on a Friday morning the snow covered her windows and school was called off for the third day in a row, she spend those three days fighting with him, even though they were over they still fought as if they loved each other, he knew what buttons to push on her to make her cry and she knew just what to say to make him wild with rage, he knew she still loved him even though he constantly denied it, she would always tell him she didn't know why she loved him because he was such an ass hole but she still loved him no matter what. She laid there in bed listening to the t.v whisper and her heater fan blowing the cold winds away, she pulled the covers over her head and turned over grabbing the pink bear she still slept with even though he was gone, she sighed softly as she reached over lazily to her phone and pulling it close to her, she flipped it open and looked at the two messages one from Nick Prahinski red "Hey It's Nick :)" Received: Fri, Jan 8 1:49am and the other one was from Cass[Lt.Lucky] "I've Been Thinking...." Recieved: Fri, Jan 8 5:08am. Her heart stopped and she closed her phone quickly as she pulled the blanket tightly over her head and took a deep breath replying "Thinking about what?" She sent the message and laid her phone aside waiting on what he would say next. She could only lay there nestled under the blanket letting her mind hit pause and then rewind bringing her back the moment they first met and their first kiss and every other perfect moment they spent together, she still loved him and she knew in her heart that he still cared about her, when she would talk to him she learned to listen beyond his bitter word and listen with her heart to everything he was saying it was like it was a secret code for "I Really Do Miss You." She took another deep breath and opened one of her eyes looking that the slate gray walls from under her blanket. She still hasn't heard from him yet but she's so scared to hear what he has to say she almost doesn't want to know. She decided to go back to bed until she was ready to face this chilly friday morning with out this feeling of terrified butterflies in her stomach.

I've Made Up My Mind;

"Walking In My Winter Wonder Land."

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So coming 01.01.10, I will start blogging again. A new year mean a new start, a clean slate and fresh ideas.

I'm excited for a new year because this year was a drag. It did have it's moments of pure bliss but shit hit the fan more than anything. So be looking out for my daily blog updates starting 01.01.10.

Everyone have an amazing break and a Merry Christmas.

:)

Signing out

-Missy